General anxiety

[hils]

I keep dreaming that I'm driving a car and then remembering I haven't passed my test yet. I think because in my head I am a better driver than reality demonstrates. This is why I keep getting frustrated after my lessons. I feel like I should be doing better than I am. Didn't help that on Friday Greg said 'Oh, you must be about ready to take your test by now.' FAR from it actually.

Then I was chatting to touchstoneaf about the proposed trip to Seattle next year and I suddenly remembered that in theory I will be out of a job by Christmas and I started freaking out. I like stability in my life so I can plan things in advance and I don't have that at the moment. I am confident I will be able to get another job in the company but I don't know what I'll be doing or where I'll be working and that scares me, especially if I end up having to move to a new city as a result

*wibbles*

Comments

[touchstoneaf.livejournal.com]

what's happening to your job? What did i miss somehow?

I've come to realize (or maybe re-realize over and over again, tho every damn time it seems new) that these things seem to happen for a reason. Or something.

hang in there, girl.

[hils.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm currently working as a contractor and technically our contract is due to end in December. I suspect it will wind up being extended but it's the not knowing that bothers me.

At any rate some time in the next 8-12 months I will have to find a new job and since I live in a fairly small city the chances are I'll have to move :(

[tiggothy.livejournal.com]

How do your driving lessons generally go? My instructor was chatty (in a laid-back-old-geek kind of way) which helped more than anything else to make me improve my skills; and then my examiner was similarly easy to chat to, which helped when I took my test.

*hugs and best wishes*

[hils.livejournal.com]

Oh, I get on really well with my instructor. He's the same age as me and easy to chat to. I still make a lot of mistakes though

[selinamoonfire.livejournal.com]

Why are you planning to go to Seattle?

[hils.livejournal.com]

To see Michael of course! Next years Hockey Challenge

[selinamoonfire.livejournal.com]

Oooh! I forgot about that! :D

[hils.livejournal.com]

Assuming I can go of course. It's looking unlikely to be honest

[selinamoonfire.livejournal.com]

Awwww!

[hils.livejournal.com]

:(

[selinamoonfire.livejournal.com]

Maybe it'll still happen. You should see my corner of the world sometime. ;)

[hils.livejournal.com]

I'd like to! Maybe if the Hockey thing doesn't work out I can just come for a visit some time *g*

[selinamoonfire.livejournal.com]

LOL When the hockey thing works out, I can bail you out after you two get arrested for stalking. :P

[hils.livejournal.com]

LOL!!! Well, that's reassuring