:(

I am so sad for Misha right now :(

I kind of just want to hug him.

I've always said I will stick with the show no matter what but if things are really as bad as this sounds I'm not sure I can. I will forever love the show for introducing me to so many great people but I think if this stuff is true watching it without Misha would leave a bad taste in my mouth.

Will have to wait and see what happens I guess.

I'm not okay

Usually I pride myself in being the upbeat chipper one. I try to put a positive spin on most things and draw positive experiences out of whatever's happening to me.

I have no idea what happened last night but it's like someone beat me over the head with an angsty stick. I feel miserable and depressed and getting out of bed to go to the bank today was a real effort. In fact right now I would quite like to go back to sleep.

I don't know what it is really. I suppose a combination of the fact that I miss Nashville and the fact that fandom is just not a fun place to be at the moment. Everyone is on edge and upset.

I am hoping that going back to work tomorrow night will perk me up just because it means stepping back from all of this.

All I know is that lying in bed last night thinking about the Christmas holidays I will spend alone once my parents are gone is not a healthy use of my time.

I really should be spending my afternoon/evening writing but I think I am going to play some Playstation instead.

Monday Fic Rec

Dean/Gabriel
Poetic Justice by tiptoe39
Without Gabriel, the world needs a Trickster. Dean is offered the job.
I am not really a Dean/Gabriel shipper but I LOVED this! One part actually made me cry and others had me laughing out loud

Aww!

See, when things seem gloomy a little ray of sunshine comes along that makes me remember what a wonderful place fandom is after all

Read the story that goes with this auction

What a lovely thing for this person to do. She could have just kept it.

And the day gets better

Misha + Sebastian + singing + Mark Sheppard asking them what the bloody hell they are doing

♥