I'm not okay
Jun. 13th, 2011 04:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hilsUsually I pride myself in being the upbeat chipper one. I try to put a positive spin on most things and draw positive experiences out of whatever's happening to me.
I have no idea what happened last night but it's like someone beat me over the head with an angsty stick. I feel miserable and depressed and getting out of bed to go to the bank today was a real effort. In fact right now I would quite like to go back to sleep.
I don't know what it is really. I suppose a combination of the fact that I miss Nashville and the fact that fandom is just not a fun place to be at the moment. Everyone is on edge and upset.
I am hoping that going back to work tomorrow night will perk me up just because it means stepping back from all of this.
All I know is that lying in bed last night thinking about the Christmas holidays I will spend alone once my parents are gone is not a healthy use of my time.
I really should be spending my afternoon/evening writing but I think I am going to play some Playstation instead.
I have no idea what happened last night but it's like someone beat me over the head with an angsty stick. I feel miserable and depressed and getting out of bed to go to the bank today was a real effort. In fact right now I would quite like to go back to sleep.
I don't know what it is really. I suppose a combination of the fact that I miss Nashville and the fact that fandom is just not a fun place to be at the moment. Everyone is on edge and upset.
I am hoping that going back to work tomorrow night will perk me up just because it means stepping back from all of this.
All I know is that lying in bed last night thinking about the Christmas holidays I will spend alone once my parents are gone is not a healthy use of my time.
I really should be spending my afternoon/evening writing but I think I am going to play some Playstation instead.