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hilsI know I haven't been blogging much. Mostly because all social media has now been blocked at work and that was where I used to do most of my posting (shh, yes, I know I'm supposed to be working).
Then the US election happened and, honestly, I still don't have the words to adequately describe how that left me feeling. I may not be a US citizen but things like this effect us all, especially here in the UK where we have been experiencing similar fear, uncertainty, xenophobia and racism since the Brexit referendum.
I hate the world we're currently living in. I hate that this culture of fear and hatred has evolved so much that it's now influencing how countries are governed. I'm scared for all the non-white, LGBTQ and women who are going to be even less safe than they were before in the coming months and years. And I hate how helpless I feel about it all.
America is being ruled by a buffoon with no political experience, with a vice president who thinks gay kids should be given electroshock treatment until they're straight or they die. My own country is being governed by a woman who wants to close all our borders, toss out all the foreigners, get rid of free healthcare and somehow still expects our country to function.
I'm sad and I'm tired. The exhaustion runs deep. Things that I usually turn to to cheer me up just aren't cutting it now.
And then to cap off what has been a spectacularly shitty week Robert Vaughn passed away today.
Not a major shock given he was 83 years old but this one has hit me hard. I grew up watching The Man From UNCLE and last year I rewatched all of it before the movie came out and I fell deep into the fandom. This show brought me so much joy, and hope too. Because if a show made in the 1960s could write interesting and well developed female characters who had their own agendas and weren't just there to be a casual love interest then maybe we could get back to that.
Losing Robert, on top of everything else, has just crushed me. I've been crying on and off for the past couple of hours and I don't think I've shed actual tears over a celebrity death since Christopher Reeve died.
Tomorrow after I've done some chores I am going to sit quietly and watch some of my favourite Man From UNCLE episodes.
Rest in Peace, Robert.
Then the US election happened and, honestly, I still don't have the words to adequately describe how that left me feeling. I may not be a US citizen but things like this effect us all, especially here in the UK where we have been experiencing similar fear, uncertainty, xenophobia and racism since the Brexit referendum.
I hate the world we're currently living in. I hate that this culture of fear and hatred has evolved so much that it's now influencing how countries are governed. I'm scared for all the non-white, LGBTQ and women who are going to be even less safe than they were before in the coming months and years. And I hate how helpless I feel about it all.
America is being ruled by a buffoon with no political experience, with a vice president who thinks gay kids should be given electroshock treatment until they're straight or they die. My own country is being governed by a woman who wants to close all our borders, toss out all the foreigners, get rid of free healthcare and somehow still expects our country to function.
I'm sad and I'm tired. The exhaustion runs deep. Things that I usually turn to to cheer me up just aren't cutting it now.
And then to cap off what has been a spectacularly shitty week Robert Vaughn passed away today.
Not a major shock given he was 83 years old but this one has hit me hard. I grew up watching The Man From UNCLE and last year I rewatched all of it before the movie came out and I fell deep into the fandom. This show brought me so much joy, and hope too. Because if a show made in the 1960s could write interesting and well developed female characters who had their own agendas and weren't just there to be a casual love interest then maybe we could get back to that.
Losing Robert, on top of everything else, has just crushed me. I've been crying on and off for the past couple of hours and I don't think I've shed actual tears over a celebrity death since Christopher Reeve died.
Tomorrow after I've done some chores I am going to sit quietly and watch some of my favourite Man From UNCLE episodes.
Rest in Peace, Robert.
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Date: 2016-11-11 11:41 pm (UTC)Because cyber-hugs can be multi-platform.
I heard the news about Robert Vaughn as I was driving home from a family funeral, and thought of you at once. Yes, he lived a good life, and was granted success late as well as early, but still too soon and, in this awful week, too much. Sodding 2016 hits again.
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Date: 2016-11-12 10:40 am (UTC)Yeah, it was just the straw that broke the camel's back for me I think
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Date: 2016-11-12 01:21 am (UTC)He'll live on in our writing, memories and through the body of his wonderful work, but still knowing that he's really gone is weighing heavily on the heart.
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Date: 2016-11-12 10:41 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-11-12 02:24 pm (UTC)The US stuff is still really shocking isn't it.
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Date: 2016-11-12 05:03 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2016-11-14 11:11 am (UTC)It was awful. Especially as he went the same way as Ruth's step dad earlier this year.
I just hope he wasn't aware of Trump winning the election. That would not have gone down well with him.
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Date: 2016-11-25 03:46 pm (UTC)Some much needed hope in a world increasingly filling with hate (experienced some of my own Trump/Brexit inspired hate last night; sadly no-one stood up to it besides me. Can't believe how not scared I was; until afterwards).
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