Talking about weight

[hils]

Just watched this on bittermint's journal

I really wish I could be that way about my weight, and the fact is I didn't really think about it until the doctor told me I needed to lose weight. I'm not huge. Last time I weighed myself I was about 147lbs but of course once medical people tell you to lose weight you start to panic.

It doesn't help that I have photos like this kicking around to remind me what I used to look like (this was 2003 and yes I am VERY pale).

I'm at a point now where I'm just about happy with my body again. I still weigh about 12lbs more than I did in that photo but I look ok. However, this is a result of checking the calories on everything I eat and not allowing myself to eat 'naughty food' unless it's a special occasion. Like the woman in the video said, if I ate whatever I wanted my weight would just shoot back up and that's not something I'm comfortable allowing to happen.

So that video shamed me slightly because I am one of the people being talked about. I don't care what other people look like at all, but I am very conscious of myself. Wish it were otherwise but that's just me