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May. 11th, 2005 07:28 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hilsOk, I had a bit of a misery-fest last night
I sent both of my parents a text message yesterday to tell them about me passing my test and having got through to the interview stage. My mum replied with a joke and my dad didn't reply at all. Neither of them phoned me. Well, it's so nice to know that they're proud of me. I didn't think it bothered me until last night when I was lying in bed and I just started to cry. Once I started I couldn't stop
I should be used to it really. It was the same at school/uni. They just expect me to do well at stuff so when I do I'm just confirming their expectations and it's no big deal
I dunno, it just hit me hard last night
The other thing is Dave has got through to the interview stage too which means we're going to have to go to Leeds and Glasgow together. There will be other people going with us but I can't wait to see how he reacts to being stuck in a small space with me. I reckon he'll either hide in the toilet or spend the whole time in the smoking carriage.
Pathetic
Sometimes I wish I wasn't so damn nice and could just go and shout at him and tell him what I really think. Like how it's no wonder our relationship didn't feel right when he's clearly got the maturity of a five year old. But no, I can't do that, instead I helped his office pick a nice leaving present for him because he hasn't told them he's not speaking to me and they asked my advise
Stupid Hils!
I sent both of my parents a text message yesterday to tell them about me passing my test and having got through to the interview stage. My mum replied with a joke and my dad didn't reply at all. Neither of them phoned me. Well, it's so nice to know that they're proud of me. I didn't think it bothered me until last night when I was lying in bed and I just started to cry. Once I started I couldn't stop
I should be used to it really. It was the same at school/uni. They just expect me to do well at stuff so when I do I'm just confirming their expectations and it's no big deal
I dunno, it just hit me hard last night
The other thing is Dave has got through to the interview stage too which means we're going to have to go to Leeds and Glasgow together. There will be other people going with us but I can't wait to see how he reacts to being stuck in a small space with me. I reckon he'll either hide in the toilet or spend the whole time in the smoking carriage.
Pathetic
Sometimes I wish I wasn't so damn nice and could just go and shout at him and tell him what I really think. Like how it's no wonder our relationship didn't feel right when he's clearly got the maturity of a five year old. But no, I can't do that, instead I helped his office pick a nice leaving present for him because he hasn't told them he's not speaking to me and they asked my advise
Stupid Hils!