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hilsBit of a weird day today. Felt pretty much ok when I got up, not too miserable or anything. Got to work, sat down and started my usual array of dull tasks.
Then it got to about 11am. Realised to my dismay that for some reason my computer kept changing the dates on letters I was sending out, and a bunch of them had already been collected. Nearly burst into tears right there. Was utterly convinced that if anyone saw the letters or found out they'd see just how incompetant and crap I am.
So there I was back in depressed land again.
Had lunch with Tyson and told him how I was feeling. Of course he went straight into counsellor mode which really WASN'T what I needed right then. I needed a friend.
Spent the afternoon just keeping my head down and not really talking to anyone. By 4:30 everyone had gone home for some reason so I was all alone. Spent the time doing little jobs and just moping really.
Spent the last hour doing some writing which perked me up a little. Then came home.
Dave and Dee are coming over in about half an hour to play Mah Jong. Not really sure how I feel about that. Part of me wants to just stay in my room and mope, but on the other hand we usually have a good laugh when they come over so it might do me some good.
We'll they'll have already left by now so it's too late to cancel. Just have to hope something doesn't set me off with the crying again
Meh!
Then it got to about 11am. Realised to my dismay that for some reason my computer kept changing the dates on letters I was sending out, and a bunch of them had already been collected. Nearly burst into tears right there. Was utterly convinced that if anyone saw the letters or found out they'd see just how incompetant and crap I am.
So there I was back in depressed land again.
Had lunch with Tyson and told him how I was feeling. Of course he went straight into counsellor mode which really WASN'T what I needed right then. I needed a friend.
Spent the afternoon just keeping my head down and not really talking to anyone. By 4:30 everyone had gone home for some reason so I was all alone. Spent the time doing little jobs and just moping really.
Spent the last hour doing some writing which perked me up a little. Then came home.
Dave and Dee are coming over in about half an hour to play Mah Jong. Not really sure how I feel about that. Part of me wants to just stay in my room and mope, but on the other hand we usually have a good laugh when they come over so it might do me some good.
We'll they'll have already left by now so it's too late to cancel. Just have to hope something doesn't set me off with the crying again
Meh!
