Random thoughts
Jan. 28th, 2003 06:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
hilsIt kind of hit me today that I don't mind being at work as much as I used to. Not just because the office bitca leaves me alone most of the time, it just doesn't bother me so much.
This is bad
Why? Because my writing used to drive me. Every day I'd go to work and the reason it was driving me insane was because I wanted to be at home writing. I just don't feel that anymore. I can't pinpoint when it happened, it just did.
Now I was sat at my desk realising that this could be it for me. I'm doomed to spend my life paper pushing because my love for writing has slowly been sucked away and replaced my accpetance of the monotony I now live in.
Jesus it's scary. MUST motivate self this weekend. Even if it's just a fic I don't care. I want the fire back
This is bad
Why? Because my writing used to drive me. Every day I'd go to work and the reason it was driving me insane was because I wanted to be at home writing. I just don't feel that anymore. I can't pinpoint when it happened, it just did.
Now I was sat at my desk realising that this could be it for me. I'm doomed to spend my life paper pushing because my love for writing has slowly been sucked away and replaced my accpetance of the monotony I now live in.
Jesus it's scary. MUST motivate self this weekend. Even if it's just a fic I don't care. I want the fire back
