Introspection and other things
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hilsI've been thinking a lot over the past few days about the way I interact with people online and how I need to try and be a better person.
Everyone is struggling at the moment and I've been so caught up in my own feelings that I don't think I'm being as considerate as I could be. I'm always saying that if people are struggling they can talk to me, but when those struggles involve lashing out at me or my friends my first instinct is to go into protective mode or get angry instead of trying to help.
Obviously I am not a licenced therapist, of course, but I feel like I should be trying to do more instead of just shrugging my shoulders or getting mad about it.
Much to think about.
Aside from that I'm just sort of trundling along. Some days are better than others. The switch to daylight savings time messed me up as it does every year. I don't know why losing just one hour leaves me feeling jetlagged but it always happens.
Recruitment at work continues. Done a couple of interviews this week and have another one today.
My friend Ros has suggested now that we're allowed to meet outdoors that I go over one day this week and have dinner in the garden with her and my nephew. That'll be nice, I think. I haven't seen them since before Christmas.
Spoken to my parents about the possibility of visiting. Dad had his first vaccine dose a couple of weeks after mine but mum only had hers last week so it'll be a while yet. Tentatively looking at August possibly but it depends what happens both here and in Scotland which is where they live.
I think I've properly converted Jacqui to asian dramas now. She watched the first season of Kingdom on her own because I'd already seen it, then we watched the second season together. Her next pick was Sweet Home so it's actually been a while since we watched a BL show. We're currently watching Mr Queen which is semi-BL I guess (a man gets transported into the body of a woman who is about to be married to the king). It's really funny, but also full of political intrigue. We're enjoying it a lot.
Writing is going well. I just finished my latest WIP yesterday. It came in at 8.5k before editing and will probably be longer because my method of editing seems to involve adding words. Once that's done I am going to write something for Liu Sang week. I have an idea outlined so I should be able to just get on with it. It's due on the 21st so hopefully I can get it done in time.
Everyone is struggling at the moment and I've been so caught up in my own feelings that I don't think I'm being as considerate as I could be. I'm always saying that if people are struggling they can talk to me, but when those struggles involve lashing out at me or my friends my first instinct is to go into protective mode or get angry instead of trying to help.
Obviously I am not a licenced therapist, of course, but I feel like I should be trying to do more instead of just shrugging my shoulders or getting mad about it.
Much to think about.
Aside from that I'm just sort of trundling along. Some days are better than others. The switch to daylight savings time messed me up as it does every year. I don't know why losing just one hour leaves me feeling jetlagged but it always happens.
Recruitment at work continues. Done a couple of interviews this week and have another one today.
My friend Ros has suggested now that we're allowed to meet outdoors that I go over one day this week and have dinner in the garden with her and my nephew. That'll be nice, I think. I haven't seen them since before Christmas.
Spoken to my parents about the possibility of visiting. Dad had his first vaccine dose a couple of weeks after mine but mum only had hers last week so it'll be a while yet. Tentatively looking at August possibly but it depends what happens both here and in Scotland which is where they live.
I think I've properly converted Jacqui to asian dramas now. She watched the first season of Kingdom on her own because I'd already seen it, then we watched the second season together. Her next pick was Sweet Home so it's actually been a while since we watched a BL show. We're currently watching Mr Queen which is semi-BL I guess (a man gets transported into the body of a woman who is about to be married to the king). It's really funny, but also full of political intrigue. We're enjoying it a lot.
Writing is going well. I just finished my latest WIP yesterday. It came in at 8.5k before editing and will probably be longer because my method of editing seems to involve adding words. Once that's done I am going to write something for Liu Sang week. I have an idea outlined so I should be able to just get on with it. It's due on the 21st so hopefully I can get it done in time.
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Date: 2021-04-03 06:25 pm (UTC)As for being a supportive person....you are. I've never gotten the impression you aren't, and while all of us are struggling and sometimes we do make bad choices or lash out, I don't think that even bad circumstances excuse it nor should you feel like you have to help as opposed to maybe... mitigate harm, not just for the lashing out person but also for you and your friends. You don't have to do more nor make another person's struggle easier - that's got to be a choice of the self. But that's just my two cents and I'm not always sure what I think comes from a place of reason and/or empathy.
Anyway, I think you are a good person and here's hoping good things come your way!
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Date: 2021-04-04 07:52 pm (UTC)I grew up watching a lot of Chinese and Japanese imported shows. Going back to it feels bittersweet as it makes me wonder if the friends I watched them with are all ok. It isn't just COVID, but the racist assaults that makes me hope that even if I lost touch with them years ago I hope they are all ok.