Hello (and goodbye)

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I've been home from writerconuk for a few hours now but I've been busy catching up on LJ, replying to comments and watching Sherlock.

I really should have gone to bed hours ago. I didn't sleep much this weekend as I was up until the wee hours on Friday and Saturday night chatting and drinking with kitty_poker1

The con was amazing but I'll do a full writeup and posting of photos tomorrow.

Coming home was a bit of a whirlwind of highs and lows.



My big bang fic is already my most commented on fic and I only posted it two days ago. I can't even begin to express how much all the comments meant to me, which is why I replied to all 60+ of them before I did anything else.

As I'm sure you all know I have been deeply anxious about this fic recently. I'm not one of those people who angst as a way of fishing for compliments. Really, I'm not. I actually came close to having a panic attack because I was so nervous about posting this. I really and truly have a deeply negative view of my own writing which I have no idea how to fix. I started hyperventilating when I thought about posting it which was actually quite scary but I think that was nerves coupled with anxiety about moving house. I hope so anyway because I don't want to go through that every time I post something.

So it was massively relieving to find lots of nice comments when I got home. Kind of makes the stress worth it I guess.

But then I found out I'd been wanked about on the anon meme. Nothing to do with my big bang fic thankfully but it was the same old things. Someone said I was nice but that I posted too much and that my fics (specifically my Dean/Cas fics) were bad. I wasn't the only one mention. Half the Dean/Cas fandom seemed to come under fire.

I'm not sure people can really judge my Dean/Cas fic to be honest. I haven't actually written that many. I think maybe three or four in total.

But in the end it turned out to be godofstrife who is now a well known troll and freely admitted it. Douchebag. He/She essentially just attacked everyone he knew and I have to say knowing who it was actually made me feel better because I know what an asshole he/she is. I'm still pissed at all the work he left me and oddlyfamiliar to do over at rec_hymenated

So that turned out okay(ish) in the end and I then saw I'd been recced over at j2_rec which made it a good end to the day.

Ack! This wasn't supposed to be a long post. Sorry.

I have stuff to post tomorrow (I'll try not to be too spammmy) but in the meantime let me do the important poll job before I go to bed. I wanted to keep it going over the weekend but the wifi in the hotel really sucked