Meh!

I feel crappy. I'm cold, my throat hurts and I've got a headache. Am sat here wrapped up in my coat and scarf. Should really be cleaning, writing or doing something productive. Why do I always get ill in MY free time.

Anyway, anger and irritation aside here's a meme that I nicked from kimberly_a

Number of people on my lj friends list ...: 54
whom I've met in person: 9
whom I've met in person more than once: 6
whose house I've been to: 3
who have been to my house: 4
whose full names I know offhand: 12
whom I've followed/been in touch with for more than 3 years: 3
whose journal I consider myself "addicted" to: 5
whom I've lived with: 1
whom I knew before LJ: 3



Random Survey

Name: Hilary
One word for your personality: Yikes!
On your mind at the moment: Mind not really working at the moment
Insecurities: Too many to list
If dogs could speak, would you trust them more than humans?: No, because they're stupid.
Any piercings?: None
Pen and paper, or typed up: Typed
Lights on or off: On
Alone or with s/o: Both in moderation
Asking or questioning: Questioning
In 50 years, what will mainly run this world?: Giant robots ;)
Biggest fear: I have many fears
Definition of - HEARTBROKEN: in deep, but temporary, emotional pain
Definition of - BRAIN DEAD: scientific definition or intense stupidity
Do you feel you are deep, mysterious, shallow, blonde, carefree [pick one]: None
Give your favorite quote/saying/poem: I don't really have one
What makes you cry?: Many things
The mood you're in right now. Do you like it?: Ill. No
Are you at the moment afraid of something?: yes, always
Rap or rock: rock
Strawberry or raspberry: Strawberry
Weed or cocaine: Weed
Pepsi or water: water water water water
List 5 things you like to eat: Chocolate, pasta, steak, cake and mmm...pie
What's one thing that bugs you about your best friend?: She's a hormonal time bomb
What's one thing that bugs you about your mom?: She chews loudly. LOL
What's one thing that bugs you about you?: emotional instability
What's one thing that bugs you about the world?: greed
Why are you filling this out? I'm bored

DEEP INSIDE
I love: Life (most of the time)
I desire: Happiness
I feel: everything too intensely
I need: right now, sleep
I want: to write a novel
I laugh about: silly things
I cry about: Silly things like films.
I ask myself: to do too much
I hide: from the world
I dream: About weird stuff
I keep: This journal
I make: Not much money
I enjoy: Peace and quiet
I hate: Myself a lot of the time
I fear: GWB at the moment
I wish: I could be more happy with myself
I know: Who Clive Barker is (now)
I conquer: Not much
I make believe: That in the end I'll live happily ever after
I trust: not enough people

TV rant (Alias and West Wing and mini Buffy)

Well, I finally saw the last episode of series 1 of Alias last night. I'll cut just in case

( Grr Argh! )

Plus I've been ploughing through the West Wing and I've just found out that Season 2 isn't out on DVD yet. WHY are these TV people torturing me so? Do they not realise how long it's taken me to get into a show that ISN'T Buffy or Angel??

Still, at least we're pretty much covered with the Farscape situation. As far as I know it's all out on DVD so catching up isn't an issue.

And finally...

( Buffy Wildfeed thoughts )

And yes I am aware that waffling on about all this tv makes me sound like a total nerd. Sorry

Fanfic meme thing

Got this one from matty_moos

Most memorable:
I guess my Fluffy Files. It's my mammoth project but overall it's been fun

Least memorable:
My first one. Unexpected

Your favorite:
Probably Be Careful What You Wish For. I put a lot of effort into it. Still not sure it's my best but it's my fave.

Your least favorite:
Again Unexpected. I think most people out there hate their first fics.

Your most successful (in terms of reviews):
Well, my Fluffy Files but that's just because it's the longest. Although I think Fluffy Seeing Red is still my most reviewed peice.

Your biggest bomb (in terms of reviews):
Um...Who Am I? But then it's only very short.

Your biggest surprise hit:
Everything Is Under Control. I thought it sucked and then it won an award.

Your biggest surprise bomb:
Better Than No Love. I thought it was hysterically funny but people weren't keen on the Xander/Andrew and Willow/Warren thing.

The theme of your fics:

I'm not sure any of them have theme's really. Most of them are just entertaining stories with a bit of character growth thrown in


You As A Writer:

Best moment in your writing career:
When I 'fixed' Seeing Red. That's probably the only story that required barely no editing when it was done.

Worst moment in your writing career:
Flames are always bad. I remember when this one girl posted a report on her site where she took each of my fics and explained why she felt they were so bad

Easiest fic to write:
Nothing's ever easy but Fluffy Seeing Red seemed to go pretty well.

Hardest fic to write:
Um...I had to write Fluffy Gift about three times, just because it kept turning into a cliche. In fact I think it still is really.

How long have you had a ff.net account:
2 years and 2 months

How long do you plan to have a ff.net account:
I'll always keep my account, but the fic writing will probably stop when Buffy does in a few months

How did you find ff.net:
From flickums

The Future:

Planning on starting a new series?:
Nope!

Planning on writing a sequel?:
Nope!

Plan on co-writing anything?:
Depends if someone asks. Although I think me and richess are due to do one final co-write before it all ends.

What genre would you like to work more in?:
I need to write more angst. Trouble is I'm not really any good at it. I like my stuff to be happy. Same with dark fics. Can't do it. Although isabellecs is trying to teach me.

CLOSING:

What was the absolute pinnacle (as of today) of your writing career:
My site winning a Spiked Award. I was up against some of the best Buffy sites out there and I nearly fell of my chair with shock when I won. I didn't even nominate myself (I never do)

What was the absolute worst event in your writing career:
Writer's block. It's evil. And the less said about me losing Fluffy Wish the better.

What are you most thankful for in your writing:
peachus. I love her and I want to have her babies. Oh, and of course the actors in the show. Without them I would never have started writing.