Non-SPN post

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awehla asked How you feel about turning 30 and did you have a "need to do before I'm 30" list when you were younger or do you still have one?

I. Am. Freaking. Out.

It's totally irrational too and I know this.

I had a long chat with Greg last week because he just turned 30 and I was wondering if he went through this whole thing. He seemed pretty ok with it and was very reassuring.

To be honest I don't know why it's bothering me so much. It's not like I feel that there are things I should have done that I haven't, or that I need to change my life in any way. I'm perfectly happy. I have a lovely flat, awesome friends, a job that I enjoy. I can't think of anything I would change to be honest

I guess it's just the feeling that time is moving along. I dunno. I'm not sure I can really put it into words. It's just an anxious feeling I get whenever I think about it.

I probably did have a list of things to do before I'm 30 but I think learn to drive was the main one and I have done that. Can't think of anything else really. Possibly own a house was on there but I'm really not bothered about not having done that.

And before you all jump in and tell me that 30 is young and I should save the freaking out for when I turn 40/50/60 that does not help. This is how I feel and I can't help it.